Scared Shitless

Change is hard.

Small  change is sustainable.

I recently posted 21 tools to unlock your creative genius which if you missed it (how dare you?!) included this video on trying something new for 30 days.

So for the next 30 days I’m going to……

QUIT SMOKING

Yes, I know, I said small change is sustainable.

But, I’ve been gradually and steadily cutting back. So I’m fairly confident I can do this. (It also helps I have one hell of a summer head cold going on right now and zero desire to smoke a cigarette.)

However, I am scared shitless.

Seriously I’d rather fight zombies than tackle becoming a non-smoker

Quitting smoking is super hard.

I’ve tried (unsuccessfully) about a dozen times.

Identifying when/why your habits are triggered is the first step to success.

Check out How to Break Habits by Charles Duhigg

After a couple hours of dealing with drunk assholes at the bar, I just want to go outside and be alone with my thoughts for 5 minutes.

So instead of lighting up while I’m out there, I will be trying some deep breathing and meditation.

Maybe if I focus on this image I can forget I’m behind a bar standing next to a dumpster??

My other huge weakness is when I have a cocktail or two.

There’s just something about booze and butts – they go together like PB and J!

I’m not quite sure how I’m going to handle that situation.

In the past when I’ve attempted quitting I just end up bumming a cigarette after a drink or two.

But that just leads to me going out and buying a pack since bumming makes me feel like a bum 😦

Anyone out there have any helpful hints on not smoking when you drink?? Please share!

Also, for any of you trying to quit yourselves, my super awesome friend Lindsey recommended this book.

I was definitely skeptical at first. How the F is some dumb book going to help me quit smoking?! But so far it’s not bad! Sir Anthony Hopkins, Lou Reed AND Ellen all endorse the method!

Wish me luck! I’ll keep you kids posted on how I’m doing.

P.S. For those of you lucky enough to see me in person on a regular basis – don’t forget to cut me a little slack when I act like a super bitch for the next couple weeks! I’m doing my best 🙂